Fear Less, Fear Less…
At the beginning of this year, my intention was to act with “Courage” and it seems that from the moment, I announced that as my intention, I’ve been thwarted by a near and strong individual, who has cared for me, all my life.
This individual wants success for me on her terms and always gives me the deepest, and strongest feelings about every action I take. She took amazing care of me as a child, a teen and my early adulthood. I understand her like no other in my life…BUT, she keeps me from being the best that I can be and after a few days of arguing, hurtful things said and lots of lethargy. I accept the fact, that she is someone I have to work with for the rest of my life, so I begin to take steps with her by my side, as I move forward to future.
This fearful warrior is my…inner critic, “Grimlette“. (Yes, she has a name!)
My battle with her, went fierce when I began Kellie Rae Roberts e-Course, Flying Lessons! The course is chock full of information and an active on-line group. I look forward to the advice and tips about marketing, blogging, social networking, etc. What I didn’t count on was the anxiety that rose from Grimlette! She went on full-blast, I mean this girl had it out for me, in new ambitious ways.
Who knew, that this wonderful e-Course, would bring her out with such a vengeance?!
Like many people, when I have a big ideas, I make lists, I plan and organize, but when it comes time to act, Grimlette is there, telling me why this will not work. The girl’s good and you know, she use to make a lot of sense. Now all the things, I’m learning to do in this e-Course doesn’t require bungee jumping off a bridge, rock climbing or riding in a helicopter dangling half way out to get a photograph, over a mountainous terrain, (all of which I’ve done). This course has made me thinking in new ways and acting on these new thoughts. It also allows me to test my dreams and to change my life in beautiful new ways. I know Grimlette is terrified of these life-altering changes. She always knew that I could conquer the jumping, climbing and hanging, because they were not going to be a part of my everyday life. She knew I had my adrenaline in place for that kind of action and she protected me well.
It’s the long-term changes in my life that’s has Grimlette on terror’s edge. The steps to grow myself in my creative life and to incorporate it into every aspect of myself has her on guard and engaged for battle. Since the beginning of the year, with anticipation of change on my mind, she thwarted me on every plan, I wanted to implement toward incorporating more courage into my life.
So as I emerge myself in Kellie Rae Roberts –
Flying Lessons, Grimlette and I will have many talks. She will challenge me every step of the way, as I move forward in the life that I know is mine to have. The re-education of my inner critic will be tough. It takes courage, strength, and support. So I will be prepared for my battles with Grimlette and her cronies, resistance, fear, and anxiety.
But, I’m an amazing cheerleader for others, in fact, I love encouraging and inspiring others! Now, I will be doing it for myself as I continue to do it for others.
So stay tuned …as I begin a personal journey holding hands with Grimlette, giving her lots of love, patience and action to move her with me, instead of against me. I’m psyched to make these changes! (“We’ll see”, says Grimlette)
How do you handle your fear(s)? What has and has not worked for you? I’d love to hear about it…