Odd With Ends…Beginning as a Possibilitarian
This year was my year for taking workshops and classes, since I wanted to be in “learner” mode, which I always find exciting, because I love to learn. Heck, if there was a job that paid me to learn, I would be top in my field! I think that’s why I like being an artist so much, because no matter how much you learn, there is always more to learn, plus there are so many disciplines of art, you can spend your whole life in this field and never get bored.
I’ve just completed my last online workshop for the year, I feel odd, now that the class ended. Since each week I looked forward to that lesson delivered, and the great feedback from all the participants. It’s been a wonderful experience, has taught me a lot, but more than that, it’s expanded my creative tribe. I’ve met some amazing artists and saw some beautiful creations! I’m looking forward to staying connected to this incredible group.
Now, the practical part of learning starts… putting all those lessons, tips, and techniques to work. No doubts, this is the hardest part.
I will take the next couple of months to process and produced based on what I’ve learned. Internally, I’m finding that to be some scary shit! (If the language bothers you, I’m sorry, no other word fits these feelings). I’m still figuring out why that is, but I do know from past experiences, that the best things have happened when I’ve worked past the scariness. When I had my first group exhibit and sold 50% of all the art from the exhibit and the only artist who sold anything; I remember being so nervous leading up to the opening of the exhibit, I had an anxiety attack , the hour before the doors open for the exhibit! I had countless experiences like this, so you would think I would be better at it now. But the thing about fear, is it’s really crafty, and it finds new ways to scare me and the more I want something, the bigger the fear! So, each time, feels new and scary and I have to work through the fear and persevere, because I love creating art, and there are too many people, who never start, or who give up and I refuse to be counted among them! Besides, this creative work keeps me passionate, full of energy and kindles my spirit, so letting go is not an option.
So I’m hoping you stay with me as I practice what I learn, taking my baby steps…I am now a Possibilitarian.
What changes are you making in your life? Can you say what you’re afraid of out loud? Or is staying the same your adventure?