50+ and growing pains…
Isn’t there a saying about “teaching an old dog, new tricks or there’s no fool, like an old fool”…with saying like these who wants to admit they’re still learning about themselves after 50?! Maybe that’s why many of us pretend that we have it all together. Well, I know, I don’t have it all together, and I’m not pretending to either!
My art still teaches me more about myself daily. I’ve just completed one of two recent commissions. This painting was a challenge on many levels:
- Self-imposed time constraints
- I don’t usually do pet portraits
- my perfectionist nature and my lack of experience in pet portraits had my critical self (aka “Grimlette”) conspiring against me.
- illness…the flu
Yet I am so happy that it is completed and I’m very proud of myself for not giving up. I’ve learned some valuable lessons about myself during this process:
- be true to your artistic process
- there will always be obstacles
- I still really don’t like doing pet portraits
- I enjoyed challenging myself in an area unexplored
- I enjoy making others happy
- I work better with a to-do list
- I am totally human and I’d better get used to it! :)
I’ve missed being in the studio, creating paintings and it feels good to be back; it’s where I’m most happiest and most challenged. At 54, it feels good to still be open to learning more about myself and changing in spite of myself. This will be my first painting going to Russia!
What lessons are you still learning?